another stupid day

yah i feel stupid. i have to cover up my friend's ass at the office. i feel some guilt but i have to do it for the sake of pakikisama. i promised myself never again but i'm sure i'd break it in the future.
this afternoon we tried to move an x-ray machine from one building to another but it just won't budge a bit. i don't know why. for two hours we came up with nothing. it's my first time to experience something like that at work. too much time wasted. so unproductive...
i gotta go home. i've been craving for that cigarette... i want to stop. but no not yet...
stupid stupid day.

lubayan mo na ako

oo minahal kita noon
damdamin ay ganon pa rin hanggang ngayon
ngunit kailangan kong umiwas na
di na tama ito...
mahal pa rin kita
ngunit ayaw ko na
pag bumalik sa piling mo
alam ko na ang mangyayari
sasaktan mo lang akong muli
nakakadala na
pakiusap lang
lubayan mo na ako

blabber...

me blabber you. almost always some people will try to pull you down... you stay low, you let them do it, for you know very well that soon they'll get tired. You hit your best shot, then you win only to find them recovering their strengths and pulling you down again. I don't know why but it seems that this cycle has been going on for ages and it never ends. what could be the explanation for this?

mind blogging...

i found myself today wanting to write a sensible thing...
but nothing comes out...
it's so mind blogging.

the mangrex experience...

it's as if u were in a faraway place
not connected to your physical body
your mind scattered in a vast space
but your soul is still intact
gathering your senses and finally
getting yourself back to face the reality
quicker, smarter, and stronger...